When i was a childiI used to dream that iI will learn overseas to master English and discoverexplore another new modern country and knowledge.
As a kid, I used to dream about winning a scholarship that would help me studying abroad, becoming proficient in English and exploring the new cultures, people and environments. ... here I included the scholarship part too :)
In order to realize the dream scholarship I practiced writing, reading and speaking in a poor condition - no English tapes, internet and good teachers.
As I grew I wanted to make this dream a reality. So I put lots of effort to read, write and speak English despite having access to any help from material, internet or even good teachers.I keep my own dream until i was lucky to enter a college (4 years) of foreign language in Da Nang University - a University in Vietnam, everything frustrated me and i had to forget my dream.
.... this is very confusing. I feel you better rephrase this line because it is difficult to grasp your idea.