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"As soon as you trust yourself, you will learn how to live. ", a saying written by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe really has taught me how to live throughout my stay in school during high school years. For others to trust you, you must first learn to trust yourself. Trust is having faith. It is earned for years, while you can lose it in just a blink of an eye. To trust yourself, you must first accept the fact that you are who you are. Yes, you can improve your skills and talents, change your attitude and beliefs, change the way you act towards other people, enhance your face, but deep inside you're still yourself. Undergoing the life of a teenager, I cannot escape the fact that I'm in the midst of being a child and an adult. Like they say, I'm too young for relationships while old for doing the household chores. I have experienced to be loaded with so many stuffs to do and I really cannot escape the fact that I need to value my responsibilities, obligations, and duties. I need to start being independent and face the problems and realities in the world. I need to be wise, strategic and critical in decision making, look farther and wider. I need not to act so childish and dumb because what I act today would affect not only mine but also other children's future. Most of all, I need to be ready to face challenges and accept failures.
Since I was a kid, I remember not participating in class recitations, first, because I am shy, and secondly, I do not want to be the cause of everybody's laughter. I excel in class so no wonder teachers would consider choosing me to represent our class. If I could not join, I would. There is a time when I quit on the day I was going to perform when I found out that I'm going to be the first to sing. My mom told me that all of my efforts and time rehearsing the song will be for nothing but I did not care because fear overpowered me. Since that day, I seldom join contests like singing or dancing instead I sometimes took part in quiz bees. Until one day, I decided to put some thrill. I took the opportunity to be part of the student council officers. Unfortunately, I did not win the election; instead I automatically am one of the batch representatives.
I also was forced by my classmates and friends to be the model for the recycled fashion show that was held a while ago on the 31st of July. I was so nervous but I told myself that I wouldn't be chosen if I do not deserve to be. I should not waste their trust and treasure it. And by means of treasuring their trust, I should do my best to represent our class. And expect the unexpected, I, together with my batch mate, both won the best female model. My classmates and I was so shocked and at the same time was so happy because we almost lose hope and even quit the show but look at us, our hard work paid off. Also, my blouse and skirt was only sewn few hours before the program start and only by my classmates without using any machine. Maybe, we are really born crammers, but what makes that time special? The special thing is not about winning nor losing, it is about the cooperation, support and unity that was shown while doing that project and by supporting each other. On the upcoming contest called "Piqcians Got Talent" I and my friends are planning to join and showcase what we've got. Win or lose, what we'll treasure is the experience and memories and not the prize.
Having a best friend is like having a sister. She's the one who you could tell problems with and share stories whether it is good or bad without being judge. But have you ever thought that you can lose her despite of all the years you have been together? I lost my best friend when we fought about something terrible. We came to the point where we backstabbed each other. It took so many months before we made up, but after a few months we eventually fought again. That incident happened several times and that is when I realized that our friendship would no longer work. But who would have thought I would have a best friend again only after a few months? I happened to find a new friend when she transferred to our school. As time flies by she became my closest and best friend. We shared stories, experiences, tears, and countless laughter. She taught me to believe in myself and in God. Because of this incident and my friends, I learned to be strong. I learned how to fight my battles and fight for what I know is right. I learned that time would heal everything and I learned everything happening today is part of God's plan. Because of this and them, my relationship with God grew stronger and no one can destroy our relationship.
Inch by inch, little by little, day by day, I am slowly developing myself to be confident in everything that I do. I learned to trust myself and give my best to everything that I do. Yes, there would always be the devil whispering but as long as you don't let your guards down and have faith in God, our angels would always be there to fight against the devils. I managed to be what I am now because of my friends and families who stood right beside me despite of all the negative comments thrown to me. To my teachers who taught me different lessons that made me wise and honest. Also, to a lot of authors who made me realize things and change my point of view. I could say I'm now hundred times stronger and wiser than before. I may not go to church regularly but that doesn't define what I have with God. I learned that what you are doesn't define who you are. All priests are not kind-hearted and all prisoners are not bad. I also learned from my mom that I should work hard and earn what I want and not just depend on someone. And yes I have thought of it too, because life is not a wish granting factory. I'm not perfect so I still have bad attitudes with me like for example, laziness, but there is always room for improvement. I may be stubborn sometimes or more like most of the times, but still what is best is that you should learn how to accept failures and mistakes, open yourself for improvements and trust yourself.
So, what experiences I had that made me define what am I today? Honestly, I have hundreds or even thousands of experiences that made me what I am today and it could have used up around a rim of bond paper sharing my story. What I have shared is neither my best experience nor the least shame of all, but it is the beginning. Changing is not a bad thing when you are changing for the better. It would take time but as they say, time is a bitch and a bitch attacks clueless. But I can say, "Life is about taking risks. You would not know who you really are, what you really want if you would just hide in your shell. Life is beautiful, we just need to learn how to look and appreciate at it." Again, I give my gratitude to God, my family, relatives, teachers, friends, enemies, authors and myself for helping me mold and shape myself to be a strong, clever and a kid with big plans.
